So Thanksgiving is around the corner, it’s sad that I will not be home to celebrate it with the family this year. It will different, but everything happens for a reason right?! It can be hard being an out of state student. I’m not saying that I regret coming here, but sometimes I feel like the oddball. Here’s why…
Growing up I was the only Asian American(I am Hmong to narrow it down) in my high school…Well just kidding there was maybe a total of 3 or 4 Asians at my School, but I was mostly surrounded by a variety of other Ethnics ( Weird huh?). I grew up knowing/understanding my own language and understanding the tradition/culture of why we do the things we do. My parents are very strong and strict that we were always that we appreciated our culture and with who we are. They raised all of us to appreciate others and understand that diversity is what make each individuals unique in their own ways.
So when I came here to Minnesota, where there is a high population of Hmong people here, to pursue my college career thinking it would be nice to surround myself with people of my own kind to get a better understanding of it. That however, ended well…not really what I expected it to be. Freshman year, I got bullied by some Hmong students. I was called “White Trash”, White Washed”, “slut”, “whore”, and just so many nasty things that would just make you wonder, “was this really a good idea to come here to this school, or to this State?”. I was being judged for being “different” according to the students. Every time we were to hangout and have some kind of discussion about a topic, everything I said was weird or it was something what a “white” person would say. I was also judged for hanging and partying with people of different race. Which was something they didn’t like because I was like a “wannabe”. As childish as it was for them to say and judge, I felt like it was a whole team against one. All what I can remember freshman year was constantly calling and skyping my family crying. I didn’t know who to talk to, but I learned to have my own backbone and learned to depend on my own self as the year went by….
But long story short, everyone has to go through some struggles to develop their own backbone. Be a strong individual and learn how to trust yourself before anyone else. Something I remember telling myself is
“always remember, you are here for you and only you. This is your education that you are doing for you. People want to see you fail for their own satisfaction. However, when they see that you have succeeded, that is when they try to come back in your life. Just remember, be nice to everyone and appreciate the things God gave you, he knew that you are a strong individual that is why he gave you the life you have now because he has faith that you are capable of handling it without giving up”
No matter how much I am being judged for being different just for being raised in a different environment, I am never going to regret having the life that I have now. Always remember, BE WISE & OPEN MINDED (:
(Sorry for the random rambling, it’s just my thoughts for the night.)
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